This question has no specific answer to it. However,
we keep asking this question to many people. How do I live? What is the meaning
of life?
The answer varies for every different individual
whom go through life differently everyday. One individual cannot live too many
lives of other individuals. Still, for the same question every individual never
stopped seeking for the answer. We would either know the individual or might
not know the individual. My definition of life is trust.
Without trust, you won’t be able to live. Everyday,
you would wake up and worry which bastard would stab you in the back. Which of
those whom you love would leave you? Which person in your life that you trust
so much would shatter your trust? You would go through everyday with fear in
your eyes and doubts in your mind. You might even end up not trusting yourself.
You will start asking questions to yourself;
Am I a bad
person?
Am I not worth it?
Do I not deserve someone special in my life?
Should I not
trust anyone anymore?
Should I move far away?
Should I still be alive?
What’s the point of living when I can’t live my own
life?
What’s the point of giving advice when I myself
cannot follow my own advice?
Why is it that I should listen to those around me
when they don’t even hear me out?
What’s the point of being alive?
Who am I living for?
What is my purpose of living?
Can I get one good reason that I should be alive?
Do I have a reason to live?
How do I live?
When you start asking all these questions, stand up
from your seat. Put away what you’re doing. Leave that cigarette. Leave that
bottle of whiskey on the table or what ever type of alcohol you have in your
hand. Wipe away your tears. Put a smile on your face.
It’s not because I am going to help you find your
answer. I am not God. I can’t give you your answer. You got to find the answers
on you own. However, I can tell you one thing for sure. Pull up your socks. Get
ready for your new adventure. Don’t worry, this adventure is not expensive. It
is priceless and only you can travel it. You don’t have to pack your bag. You
don’t even need to throw away your old stuff. Well, not until you are ready
that is. Unless you are someone whom has lost someone special, you don’t have
to throw anything away. Maybe you might have to get rid of some bad habits that
you have acquired during the miserable days of your life but, not your
belongings unless, you want to.
Talking about losing someone... well, honey... if
you have lost someone really important, many might have told you to let go.
Look, letting go is a choice of yes or no. Seriously speaking, you don’t really
have to let go. It is all about acceptance. The acceptance, that the person is
no more in your life. You don’t have to forget about the person. You don’t have
to delete the person too. If the person has hurt you, learn to forgive. If the person
has wounded you, learn to forget. It is easy to say, ‘just move on’. It is hard
to actually put it into action. Even to forgive and forget, its definition
varies for each individual. You don’t have to be like everybody. Do it
according to your own comfort. No one is forcing you. No one is forcing you to
breathe. No one is pressing a pillow against your face. Just take a deep breath
and decide on what you really want to feel.
Well, that’s for those whom have lost someone. I am
going all the way back to where I asked you to put a smile on your face. See, I
didn’t ask you to put a smile on your face and hypocritically tell you that
everything is going to be okay. I asked you to put a smile on your face because;
you still have time ahead of you. You can still make it in time to make a
difference in your life. When I say make a difference, I didn’t mean make a
huge donation. I meant, make a difference in YOUR LIFE. Seriously, what’s your
point of helping others live when you can’t live your own life? It might give
you some kind of satisfaction but, the satisfaction would just be for a short
while and, what about later? Are you going to keep donating until you go
totally bankrupt? Better give me the donation then...
Honey, it’s okay to not be able to trust anyone. You
are not alone. Many of us don’t trust the people around us. Only some whom are
daring enough to admit that they don’t trust anyone. When you accept that truth
about yourself, honey, you should be proud of yourself because, at that moment,
you are finally breathing for yourself. You finally found the right door to
come out. You won’t know how it happens but, you’ll definitely feel how light
your chest would get.
Hey, I said that you’d go trough a new adventure. I
didn’t say I would guide you through it. Baby, this is something you should do
on your own. Don’t depend on anyone but yourself. This is your life now and it
is up to you on how you want to start it because, when you start, there is no
end to it. It is forever. You will have to find those answers on your own; you will
have to go through a lot of pain in order to find the answers for your
questions; you will need to do it alone; you will need to depend on no one else
but yourself. And, I’ll tell you one thing for sure; you will be proud of
yourself and it will be worth it. Just be careful on how you are going to start
your journey okay... You have been listening to all those unnecessary people
all your life right? Now, listen to your world. Listen to the universe. Communicate
with them.