Why I have a Blogger account?

Why in the world did I sign up for a blogger account?

This question has always disturbed me.

Well, at first I registered because I wanted to improve my writing skills and find out how many people in the whole wide world would actually read my - well what ever it is that I have here.

Also, I registered because I am always emotionally troubled and I find that writing is the only way that I can express my emotion openly. I don't really expect any response, I just want to get the bloody feelings out. It sucks I tell you.

Then, I find that I write my best when I am emotionally disturbed. I wonder why? I wish I can change this behavior.

Anyways, it really sucks. I find that my mind is twisted in some way. I find my life only of purpose when I go through emotional despair. I think I should see a shrink but, over here, it is not an advisable idea.

Maybe, I would engage myself to see one when I am finally standing on my own feet and free from parental grasps... right now... I am just... I guess... I am just lost...

Thus, I just keep praying for my piece of mind, heart and soul.