Sweet but, Complicated

Those times we shared were special to me,
Those times we spared were worthwhile.
Those times we held each other, I treasure it;
Those times we hung on tight was beautiful.

I miss you, I do.
You brighten my day,
You light up my space,
You are always the one and only.

I wonder if this is love,
I wonder if this feeling is true,
I wonder if I can tell you,
I wonder if I do love you.

Confused, disturbed and lost, and
Have no where to go,
Have no place to run.
I wonder if you are my answer.

I know, you know.
I know you well.
I can read you, and
I can tell.

Don't be a hypocrite,
Be a man!
Say what you know is the truth,
Say what you know is real.

Because, I don't want to cheat myself,
Because, I don't want to cheat you;
I open my heart to the possibilities
Of either rejections or acceptance.

For being the woman I am,
I am proud to say that I've given my heart to one man!
For being the woman I am,
I am blessed that I am able to fall in love.

Now, I know.
Now, I understand.
Now, I belief.
Love strikes only once.

I love you, I confess.
My feelings are pure and,
I know it's true and,
I know it'll last forever.

My heart is given,
My soul for yours,
But, to commit in a relationship,
Is a promise I can't make.

For that, I feel ashamed;
I feel sad.
Because I know,
To be with you is difficult.

Difficult, not because of you but,
Difficult because of me.
Because, I have dreams to achieve and,
Because, I want to dominate my life.

Selfish? I am.
Still, I'm a human.
I want to and will decide,
On how I want my life to be.

Wonder if you will ever understand but,
I am happy to let you know.
I am happy with my life.
I am happy being who I am.

You know, I will always love you.
You know, I am always here.
You know, I'm true.
You know, I meant it well.